Waktu sebelon kita pindah kemari, gw tuh ada google blog blog orang tentang " living in Auckland ". Trus gw ketemu satu blog nya orang UK, dia bilang " Auckland could depress you in a way I cannot explain ", dan di blog nya dia bilang " everything is beautiful, but there is something about this city that depress me". Waktu gw baca gitu, gw bingung sih...mang bisa apa? sesuatu yg cantik, trus orang orang ramah bikin depresi, tapi eh ternyata..IYA LOH, sodara sodara. OMG dah, gw ga tau kenapa..the last 1 month gw berasa lelah mental aja, cape jiwa, dan kl ditanya kenapa..gw ga tau! Bang Arip juga ga membantu abis, jawabnya cuman " You'll be ok, this is what they call - settling down - " Fine, very helpful.
Gw kayak belakangan berasa I am not myself at all, dan ga ada yg bisa diajak ngomong gitu..like I said, bang Arip think this is normal, dan dia lebih focus maen clash of clan ato ga chatting ma temen dia di SG. Jadinya gw most of the night abis tidurin Ethan, kalo kita ga nonton some movie di rumah, gw cuman Pinterest-an or baca 9gag. halah banget deh ceritanya. Waktu mo nulis ini, gw rada dilema gitu..should I keep it to myself, ato just share it up, sapa tau ada yang lagi mo pindah ke nz dan kebetulan baca ini, jadinya bisa a little heads up aja buat what's coming.
Ada yang sharing the same experience kek gw ga? Kalo ada share up dong, gw tried to go crazy in cooking supaya gw ga mikir apa pun, and just focus in cooking. It helps for a while, tapi ya udah..balik lagi ke square 1. Gw juga go hard core di gardening, tp taneman gw tumbuh..dan bingung gw mo diapain lagi. T_T
Ga lucu banget kan feeling shit saban hari, hahaha.